i am here in the apartment. it is 10:23am. i just did some morning sun salutation yoga. feelings of inferiority come coming up up up in my head and heart. one of my favorite yeasayer songs just came on pandora. i'm just trying to crush each sad inferior emotion. pop! poof! gone! sitting here, breathing in and out in and out remember to breathe remember to breathe it's so funny how much we have to remind ourselves to do that. i feel hunger in my belly. i need to take pup to the bathroom. i am me. i am me. the human condition. humans are crazy. go to a healthy happy place. i love having this anonymous blog that none of my friends and family can come to. what a nice relief. to get it out there and not worry about them and their thoughts. not that i even care too much about them, i just like some privacy though. i love it. i mean i could care less if anyone ever even reads this posts. they are just for me. a place to go and get away and just say whatever i want to say, it is very freeing. you could call me a pill popper but i'm trying so hard to move away from that. so very hard. addiction is a crazy crazy thing. i see what a slavery it is. i see it for what it is these days. trying to be smarter about it. trying to make wiser decisions. no more pills. just a clear sober peaceful mind and heart. with the Goddess in my heart loving me smiling on me with affection nurturing the ever eternal Earth Mother.
